Twenty Years Ago Today

It was twenty years ago this morning that my mom passed away while laying in her bed at home after a courageous, but brief battle with cancer. The disease overtook her body and there was little that we or modern medicine could do to stay the spread of the plague throughout her body. I don’t know why it happened, but I believe she is in a better place and has been for the last two decades, busy working, while keeping a sharp eye on me and my siblings. The regrets I have are that I did not spend more time with her at the end, that I was not more understanding in my teenage mindset, and that I never knew her as an adult and father of my own three children.

The time has flown by in the last twenty years, and as the oldest, I remember my mom well; my younger siblings hardly remember her at all. But death has no sting because of the sacrifice of our Savior. Families are eternal in nature and we will all be together again one day.

City Solace No More

There are times I miss being in New York City, but I have not missed living in New York since we left. Once we did leave for the Bay Area, I never developed the same affinity for the City of San Francisco. I do, however, miss being in California at times. We had a good life in the East Bay.

It’s not that I didn’t like the City of San Francisco, it was just not my first love. But there were certain days in San Francisco, when the weather was just perfect and I used to walk along the waterfront on the Embarcadero, with the Bay Bridge gleaming in the sun, the diverse crowd flowing by me on their way to the Ferry Building or to North Beach, and I couldn’t ask to be anywhere better.

Now that I am in Salt Lake City, the direct connection to the city itself is limited. But my family and I have been exploring the world around us outside of the city. Ironically, I am busier with my current job than with any of the previous jobs I held in New York or San Francisco. My escape today lies not in the city around me, as was previously my solace, but in the natural landscape that Utah offers.